SLOW DANCE

Perhaps it's because I never went to the promI want to slow dance you in the creases of my palm

Feel the memory of pulse points It beats smooth in vertebrae calling...A two step lover
Bliss looks like your smile in kin just before the ebb of lips bring nerves to halt
Romance me beneath your thumb
lull my lids to close blues to brown
to linger in this traces of nights air
to sip sublet winds next to waiting

This constant day dream is in melody
a broken note of reality that I will play for your ear
Listen
my thoughts sound like your impulses to move
freely bring forth the rhythm hiding behind your intentions

Creep ever so meek under the shameful blush of yes
The greed is raged silence needing

Pressure
like pixies fondling the tiny hairs on your skin
they know me all too well
stimulating nomadic souls to greet
here in this back and forth of this sway

Sometimes I think you to great to be touched
a fool in confident clothing
a question bolstering through my chest
before the end of this proximity...
...would you like to slow dance with me
Knickie D. © 2009

Religious Dogma

OK, so there's the topic of religion and spirituality.
Many choose not talk about it and for some their so domineering, they could careless about what you have to say, which makes it really hard to talk to them.

How do you get someone to understand, that just as passionate as they are about their views of G-d, may very well feel the same about your views.
Some people feel as though their ideal are in fact the "Truth of G-D".
They'll go so far as to say it's not even their religious views, but the word of G-d. Well you know what you Zealot, some of use have our ideals in which we live by as well.

Is it not rude to assume those others a lesser person than you because they don't follow your doctrine.

I have a friend who considers himself an Orthodox Christian, which is all gravy to me, however he is so combative with every thing that comes out of my mouth. One can never get a word in edge-wise without hearing about "The Truth of G-d" and "The Devil".
Seriously dude. Can we breath and you not just make everything a religious conversation, especially since I'm not at liberty to mention my religious/spiritual views without a serious brow beating.

If a woman has sex with more than one man, he thinks she's a whore. If she doesn't fit a certain aesthetic (Light skin or a lovely caramel) well then she not worthy of his hand in marriage. He thinks the idea of a female or a genderless G-d of blasphemous and then proceeds to feel like I should no longer speak because I'm ridiculous. There is to be no other understanding but the Bible, which to each his own, but that's not me. Can I at least get some respect in saying I don't want to talk about it. For him, hell no. He will find a way to get back into the conversation and rant on and on about the sinful world and the ways of Satan and prayer not being in schools taking us away from G-d. Well you know what, with Christians like him, I would welcome being an Atheist sometimes.

This type of personality that he has and his verbose tendency to think that me not believing in G-d in the same fashion as him makes me wrong is really pissing me the F*&k off.
I mean can one have a conversation for once without you mentioning the "Word of G-d" apparently not.
I really believe that someone so filled with blind pride in his so-called faith really has no spine and cannot be expect to be taken seriously in any context if they cannot respect or understand the people around them.

Now it can be said that one should just avoid the topic of spirituality and religion, but with people like him, that's impossible.
Am I wrong for wanting to hang up on him repeatedly? I don't think so, but I feel as though people like him need to have more understanding and compassion before they go around berating people to death with their
rapture and wrath of G-d speeches.

I'm done.

KANYE MUCH?1?

Well how do I start. People who are cocky, in my opinion they are lacking.

It's acceptable for someone to attack a person with so called low self-esteem and tell them to think better of themself or gain some confidence. However, all too often the form of low self-esteem known as being cocky is mistaken for confidence or "swag". It's not

When you have to brag about yourself more than anyone else can, then you're trying to prove something to yourself and not the room.
You clearly need convincing that you're that awesome. It never hurts to re-evaluate yourself and the flaws you have, but when you act as though there's nothing wrong with you and BRAG ALL THE TIME then you really need help. You're the worst kind. Now you've become obnoxious (Kanye much).

Perhaps society needs to starting treating overt conceit the same as blatant self hate. Either way you are not all that sure in your own self worth.

Far be it from me to judge someone on how well they view themself, but if somethign is wrong and sed person is oh-so willing to bring attention to my personality corks of deprication, then why not return the favor.

We are all bit damaged, right? So why turn one into a better form than the other.
If you ask me whether you're Kanye or Woody Allen (Woody being that of the self depricating ind) it's not all that great.

Having body dysmorphia whether you think you're too fat and you're not or thin and too fat, it's all a bit backwards.

So for you, you cocky jackass, go sit in a corner and calm down. When you're done go get a therapist and some humility

Not-So-Kool Yoruba Brown!!!

Ok, well I know (and don't challenge me on this), that looking the way I do is not socially acceptable.

I'm 5'10 and bucking the 200lbs mark... needless to say I'm over-weight.
This doesn't mean I'm ugly, but I'll be damned if the world can't make you feel it's so.

Recently I went on the scale and saw that I gained 7lbs (mostly in the thighs and face. Why would G-d curse me so). Anyway I gained some weight and I decide well, I lost over 140lbs I can get the last 20-45lbs off so I'm not eatting any junk food and monitoring my calories. However I still feel disgusting (Not in the Tyra Banks Top Model way).

I know I have self-esteem issues, but it seems to be hard for people to understand how I feel. I don't think I'm that fat most of the time nor to I think I'm unattractive. As a matter of fact, if I were a dude I'd do me and be my boyfriend (it's not hard to get someone to do you, but the committment is lacking...smh). Beyond that it seems quite common that I am relegated to the position of fat ugly friend, sidekick, and cockblocking wingmann (I don't cock block, but some men feel the threat and act on it).

Some men will hit on your friend and then not even say hello to you, as if you are a visual inconvience, but they will acknowledge you if they feel that the one they want may be swayed by you.

Don't do that. You think I can't tell that you throwing your arm around me and talking to me like we're friends for elementary school isn't some way for you to soften me up. Look jackass, I'm not stupid and I live in a world where I can tell and I am made fully aware more often than not, that I'm not to be the object of a gentleman's affection.

Beyond this, the one's I do attract aren't worthy of picking up my dog poop. (Buck-e just co-signed this).

Anyhow, I am a work in progress as many humans are, so I know that sometimes what we preceive may not be true, but it should be seen as valid and not treated as the feelings of a crazed fat chick. My experiences (Note I said MY experiences) have led me to these conclusions.
That I at times am not even worthy of being in the same room as so-called attractive, slim body women.

Making fun of fat people is the most acceptable form of bigotry going around. I have a friend who spent 25min on the train professing how she would hate to have a fat child and while doing so refuse to even look at me while speaking. How am I to feel that having a over-weight child out weighs your concerns for havign a child with severe retardation... really now.

I mean I don't want to dwell on the negative, but one can only take so much. No one can deny that being a so-called "Big Girl" doesn't sit well with society and you are treated as a lesser human for it. I remember a survey in high school showing that these high school girls would rather have AIDS than to be considered obese or over-weight. Seriously?! Well the survey did say they got to look like models... there's your excuse.

Well I guess I can only go on so long about this and feeling like sh*t about not being gorgeous, but hey, my dog thinks I'm cute... lol

I'm done.
Don't forget Love, Charlotte album release party this thursday @ nightingale lounge @ 8pm

Funny = One lonely bytch

I'm not old enough to know everything, but I do know this much in my life experience (Notice I said "MY" life experience).

NOBODY wants to be with the funny girl... they don't take you seriously about anything and when you are serious, then something must ne wrong.If you flirt, then well., at least they'll phuck you, but they don't keep what they phuck, they keep what they love... or at least want to love...

Now this doesn't mean they want every other type of woman but the funny woman doesn't get alot of points by way of relationship. You get to be the friend (that they would phuck) or the girl who's cool in social settings, but men don't want more female friends.

Often times people might be affraid that the funny is a little too close to real and the reality ain't funny... ironic isn't it.
Well at least the funny one's have those traumatic life experiences to make jest towards and then secretly cry about it... lol
See the reality... funny, but not really

The Reason You all get Drunk Today

Cinco de Mayo
The 5th of May is not Mexican Independence Day, but it should be! And Cinco de Mayo is not an American holiday, but it should be. Mexico declared its independence from (conqueror) Spain on midnight, the 15th of September, 1810. And it took 11 years before the first Spanish soldiers were told and forced to leave Mexico
It is a date of great importance for the Mexican and Chicano communities. It marks the victory of the Mexican Army over the French at the Battle of Puebla. Although the Mexican army was eventually defeated, the "Batalla de Puebla" came to represent a symbol of Mexican unity and patriotism. With this victory, Mexico demonstrated to the world that Mexico and all of Latin America were willing to defend themselves of any foreign intervention. Especially those from imperialist states bent on world conquest.

Cinco de Mayo's history has its roots in the French Occupation of Mexico. The French occupation took shape in the aftermath of the Mexican-American War of 1846-48. With this war, Mexico entered a period of national crisis during the 1850's. Years of not only fighting the Americans but also a Civil War, had left Mexico devastated and bankrupt.
On July 17, 1861, President Benito Juarez issued a moratorium in which all foreign debt payments would be suspended for a brief period of two years, with the promise that after this period, payments would resume.
The English, Spanish and French refused to allow president Juarez to do this, and instead decided to invade Mexico and get payments by whatever means necessary. The Spanish and English eventually withdrew, but the French refused to leave. Their intention was to create an Empire in Mexico under Napoleon III. Some have argued that the true French occupation was a response to growing American power and to the Monroe Doctrine (America for the Americans). Napoleon III believed that if the United States was allowed to prosper indiscriminately, it would eventually become a power in and of itself.
In 1862, the French army began its advance. Under General Ignacio Zaragoza, 5,000 ill-equipped Mestizo and Zapotec Indians defeated the French army in what came to be known as the "Batalla de Puebla" on the fifth of May.